We lost, but we won..

All this time we have been set towards this one magical day of court.. Dreaming for months on end what the moment would bring, how we would feel, how amazing it will be to have baby C here with us, for good.. But, apparently, according to our S.W. today, we lost court.. They had submitted that we get baby C for a permanent amount of time (being until she was 18yr old) and sister in law and brother in law changed their mind and only wanted temp.. However, this is what the original plan was for temp, why did they submit permanent?
So what does this mean you may ask? Right now, we don't really know.
In the meantime, we are in love and tired.. This tiredness honestly feels like when I brought my babies home from the hospital.. Your body is running on this natural high, you sleep, but don't feel rested, the days go by so quick and you want them to slow down to savoir the sweet moments that happen.. I'm not to sure if this tiredness is due to the fact that we spent an incredibly loooong time in the hotel with 3 kids ( well, WE felt like it was a long time) or the fact that we are dealing with time changes or the fact that everyone is sick with a nasty cold or maybe the combination of all 3?? With this being said, I wouldn't change it for a thing.. Baby C is here, with us, where she belongs! From the moment I got off the plane, she has called me momma and only wants me.. Which at times I love, but other times I really want her to bond with Joel since I will be heading back to work this week end and as we all know, Joel stays home with the kids full time..
Baby C is adjusting well from our view. But our on S.W. warned us that sometimes babies this small can put on a "front" or "honeymoon" phase, but states it never lasts longer than a month.. With today being done ( kids all in bed) I think our honeymoon phase is ending.. Baby C has shown us that she hates being taken out of the bath, doesn't like it when momma kisses or hugs anyone but her, doesn't like her car seat and sometimes, just doesn't know what she wants! This has all been expressed by little miniature tantrums, which I find oddly amusing! Watching this tiny thing ( have I mention how small she is, I swear she is the size of my kids at 10 months, minus a few pounds) throw herself around in what she thinks is the world ending tantrum when really, she sounds like a little sheep baaing!!
I hope to update once we get more information, but our days are filled right now with S.W. appointments ( it's nice they come to the house, but that also means we need to have a somewhat presentable house!), getting Pax back in the routine of school and trying to figure out how life will work as a family of 5! Please keep praying for us!!